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Hello :] I’m Abz. I’m 16, F, and I live in England. I’m not looking right now :]

I'm tired, angsty, hormonal, ANGRY, happy, laughing, smiling, LOVING, longing and hoping.

Ok. I'm average. I'm a teenager, I feel sorry for myself alot, I get depressed, I get insanely happy, I experiment and I test my social boundaries. I cry and I laugh. I argue because I'm stubborn, I write because I'm creative and I drop things because I'm clumsy.

I don't want your empathy, sympathy, or hate. I'm not looking for your love or your acceptance or kindness.

I don't trust anyone. I love my friends. I'm over him.

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I LOVE:

Emma l Tatty l Brandon l Meg l Lewis l

Em - We've been bestfriends since forever. We don't always talk, and we don't always get on. But its the arguments that make me smile when I tihnk about you. I'd be lost if I didn't have someone to tell me when I'm wrong. And prove that the sky is green and the grass is blue.

Tatty - I didn't know you or a long time. You were just there. someone else's friend. I'm so glad your mine now. I will always remember talking until we both fall asleep, and laughing till we cry. You're my rock <3

Brandon - I've confided in you with things closer to my heart than anytihng else in my world. You're the closest I've ever gotten to trusting somone, and for that, I will be eternally grateful. thanks, for always being there.

Meg - My writing buddy. We've developed from ameteurs to where we are now together, and I'm proud of both of us. You're inspirationally funny, and you make me jealous. I [heart] our hilarious video calls and self-deprecating writing ways. You shall eternally be my writers-block breaker, and the one to make me smile

Lewis - Goshdurnit, but we've been friends for an eternity. Don't worry, I've already forgiven you. I wish you'd believe me once in a while, when I say that. But, thanks. We shall forever be nerdy-but-a-lil-bit-awesome-gamers.

FAVORITE QUOTE:

"And when he shall die, take him and cut him out in little stars, and he shall make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will fall in love with night, and pay no worship to the garish sun." Shakespeare, R+J.

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Poem: Anger

Are you gonna take me on?
Im out for a fight -
Hit me, punch me, bite and scratch...
I don't care.
I'll tear out your hair
And hurt you 'til you bleed.

Just like me.

Bleeding all over -
Losing blood -
Life is fading,
Heart is faltering,
Friends are leaving -
Lost.

I’m angry.
I’m scared.
I'm breaking and falling
And crawling through the mud.
I'm bowed at your feet
Covered in blood.

Don't offer that hand,
I'll bite it 'til; you scream.
Don't think its a dream.

I'm cold, shivering and raw -
I hate you -

Anger in my bones.
Outrage in my eyes.

I'm not nice,
Not anymore.



Believe Me

Believe me, little kitten, round fur ball of black and grey and white – with those pretty pink paws and almond-shaped eyes – I couldn’t ever lie to you. Not if I was stretched on the altar, naked and vulnerable, could I lie. Because you are the life and soul of my world.

Believe me, pretty flower, so purple, so violet, so happy and gay. To deceive would be a sin, in the light of your bud – so let it be known, that I never would. You could brown, and curl and wither and die, but to the end I would cradle those fallen petals, and bury them with a tear. For you are, my dear, my life and soul.

Take heart, my friend. We might fight, and snap and tear, but never would we rend, never would we break on the back of my lie. Because to you, with those sharp green eyes and frowning mouth, I could not weave deception. I’ll walk at your side until the world comes to an end, as you are the life in it, the soul.

Believe me, when I say, its true. Because for once, I couldn’t lie. With salt in my eye and a stone in my heart, I’d crawl to you on hands and knees and beg your forgiveness. For you are everything – the begin all and end all. The life and soul of my world.



Do not cry, little soldier. For to you, I’ll tell little white lies, to make you laugh and smile, and carry on like the true trooper you are. You’ll set your shoulders back and you’ll fight with all the bravery I can lend you, for you are not just my life, my soul, you are the world itself, and you are irreplaceable.

For you, crying warrior, I would lie.



Well, maybe Ill add more later. Bye bye, and take care :]

Woooooooooooooo
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